I am feeling stuck. I'm at another crossroads. The future is a bit blurry and so many questions are unanswered. I'm writing this in hopes that I will remember what it felt like to be in transition, to not have a clear picture of where I'm going, how I will get there or how I'll manage the means to ends in between. I guess that leads me to God. He is my answer. "I" alone cannot do or be at my best without his help and direction, without His blessing. I am so grateful that I am not a total nervous wreck right now. When I look back at other scary moments in my life, as long as I'm doing what is right, putting forth all that I can, things have always worked out, somehow. I know it has been blessings from heaven. So I'm trying it out again - this faith thing. I'm walking in darkness with my hand on the string that's guiding me. I may be temporarily blind but I'm moving, growing, becoming.

I hope my thoughts and experiences can help someone else to feel comfort or support. I pray that I can be someone whose life is a positive example to others. I hope to lead with my heart, with conviction and to always speak my truth. I don't need to be "right," to win arguments, to break other women down or to compare myself to anyone else. I am beautifully flawed, human, imperfect, kind, happy, unique. And I choose to find the lesson versus the trial in everything. I choose to find what I love most about myself and see others through rose colored glasses, as they can be and are at their best. The world would be a better place if we just gave each other the benefit of the doubt more often. And breathed life into each other. Speaking love. Opening our arms. Being a safe place for others to land. I wanna be like that.