Do you ever find something that you wrote or said years ago that seems to apply (again) to your life in the exact moment you need it? Going through some junk drawers today and found this little gem:

5/31/12
"Looking out the airplane window I get a tiny grasp of how the Lord must feel looking down on all of us. I think of the vastness of physical space, which is incomprehensible and realize that that, multiplied many times, the universe is infinitely greater still, and I am in awe. Of the beauty of the earth, the majesty of creation, the care and detail of a loving Heavenly Father. From this expanded perspective, I'm better able to be patient with Him and myself. It refines my concept of the world and my purpose here. I can better follow him in faith knowing that my limited vision has caused me to make rash decisions with consequences I didn't enjoy or foresee in the past. He blesses and magnifies me but He also waits to see how well I can take direction."

I can listen better. I can step outside of myself to serve others more often. I can lose myself in nature,  daydreaming about the wonders of the universe as often as I like. This sets my soul free and connects me more deeply to my Creator.

I am feeling stuck. I'm at another crossroads. The future is a bit blurry and so many questions are unanswered. I'm writing this in hopes that I will remember what it felt like to be in transition, to not have a clear picture of where I'm going, how I will get there or how I'll manage the means to ends in between. I guess that leads me to God. He is my answer. "I" alone cannot do or be at my best without his help and direction, without His blessing. I am so grateful that I am not a total nervous wreck right now. When I look back at other scary moments in my life, as long as I'm doing what is right, putting forth all that I can, things have always worked out, somehow. I know it has been blessings from heaven. So I'm trying it out again - this faith thing. I'm walking in darkness with my hand on the string that's guiding me. I may be temporarily blind but I'm moving, growing, becoming.

I hope my thoughts and experiences can help someone else to feel comfort or support. I pray that I can be someone whose life is a positive example to others. I hope to lead with my heart, with conviction and to always speak my truth. I don't need to be "right," to win arguments, to break other women down or to compare myself to anyone else. I am beautifully flawed, human, imperfect, kind, happy, unique. And I choose to find the lesson versus the trial in everything. I choose to find what I love most about myself and see others through rose colored glasses, as they can be and are at their best. The world would be a better place if we just gave each other the benefit of the doubt more often. And breathed life into each other. Speaking love. Opening our arms. Being a safe place for others to land. I wanna be like that.