New life goal: meet Sia.

My husband and I were talking about her recently after watching some interviews and he said "She is a modern day Mozart." I agree. Her ability to create music out of thin air, her talent for writing lyrics and her whole creative process and how effortless she makes it seem is incredible.

I have been immersing myself in her music lately.

I believe many of us live several different lives in the course of our years, almost like we've been several different people. I know I have. And just like smells and images have the powerful ability to evoke vivid memories, Sia's music is like time travel for me. It recalls those lifetimes. I can put in my headphones, turn up the music, close my eyes and zoom in on those moments. Live presently in the past. Another life. It's exhilarating. And strange. One of the reasons I love music so much is it's ability to stretch and elongate the feelings we are experiencing. It's the reason it can be so dangerous, so healing, so captivating and so consuming all at the same time.

90s music reminds me of hot summer days and a sun glare in my eye as I stick my head out the window of a moving car. Country music, Garth Brooks in particular reminds me of my dad. I can picture him moving about the house cleaning, a smile on his face. Sia reminds me of my struggles, the need to break out of my bounds, physically, emotionally, to push limits and explore who I am. It reminds me of Europe, dancing, feeling entirely free. Counting Crows take me back to rainy roads where I took many walks and had many cries, pouring my heart out, one with the universe and connected to everything. 

I don't know who I am in the recesses of my life that I'm away from music.

It brings me freedom. Hope. It allows me to bleed and scream and become through someone else. To relate and know I am not alone. It fills me, feeds me, moves me. A good song is like a whisper to my soul. It inhabits me. And I sing at the top of my lungs with my eyes closed.

"I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in the melody
I sing for love, I sing for me
I shout it out like a bird set free" - Sia

Music sets me free.