You have a "magical overabundance"..."that's your inherent creativity humming and stirring quietly in its deep reserve."

"...I want to live the most vividly decorated temporary life that I can. I don't just mean physically; I mean emotionally, spiritually, intellectually. I don't want to be afraid of bright colors, or new sounds, or big love, or risky decisions, or strange experiences, or weird endeavors, or sudden changes, or even failure."

Both of these bold, commanding statements were written by Elizabeth Gilbert. What a truly courageous woman. She's not afraid of her own voice. She shouts her truth from the rooftops and demands that she be heard. Not for anyone else's sake, but for her own, because she enjoys her truth. It makes her happy and she wants you to know it.

I keep thinking of all the things in the back of my mind that I've either dreamt of doing for a while or that have attached themselves to an impulsive thought I had one day without every letting go. Both remind me of a TV show "No Tomorrow" in which the two main characters write "apocalysts," things they'd like to or feel they need to do before the world ends.

My "lyst" has been forming in the back of my mind and is slowly making its way onto scratch paper, post-its and old receipts. In the interest of saving time, I think I better record it here before it gets tossed onto that pile of half-baked thoughts or I lose it forever.

1. Learn to (do) trapeze

2. Watch youtube videos and become a proficient MUA

3. Play a Princess

4. Take a kickboxing/self-defense class

5. Sing a solo

6. Perform in a musical theater

7. Do areil yoga

8.  Visit all 7 continents

9. Create my own "followmeto" collection

10. Stay the night in a castle

11. Visit Mongolia and sleep in a yurt

12. Meditate in an ashram in India

13. Learn the art of henna

14. See the northern lights in person (kakslauttanen)

15. Stay in a tree house

16. Go on a spontaneous trip anywhere in the world
17. Visit the Taj Mahal 

18. Walk the stage at the MGM grand in Las Vegas as an RVP with Arbonne

19. Go on a date night to Lagoon!

20. Visit Harry Potter World in LA or Orlando

21. Learn to make cosplay armor

22. Build my own Sabriel cosplay

23. Attend the Labyrinth Masquerade ball, in costume

24. See Tiesto live

25. Dress up in 70s garb and go rollerskating

26. Dye my hair a crazy color

27. Escape from an escape room

28. Go to Hawaii with my family

29. Publish some sort of creative writing

30. Invent something

31. Be a mermaid

32. Get ripped

33. Eat my way through Italy

34. Teach my son to read

35. Paddleboard

36. Attend a paint nite

37. Randomly pay for someone's gas

38. Randomly pay for someone's groceries

39. Photograph something life-changing

40. Become fluent in Russian

41. Doula for someone

42. Have a baby naturally! No meds, no induction!

43. Build a cabin and live in it

44. Start a blog

45. Become a victim advocate

46. Pyrograph

47. Visit and take pictures in front of all the LDS temples in the world!

48. Become a proficient yogi

49. Take my husband on his dream trip

50. Attain financial freedom
51. Swim in a crater
52. Visit Legoland!
53. Learn needlepoint
54. Write and publish a children's book
55. Learn the doll piece from Chitty Chitty Bang Bang
56. Meet Jay Shetty - I got to see him live

That's good for now, I think. 

I want to remember Liz's warning:

"Often what keeps you from creative living is your self-absorption (your self-doubt, your self-disgust, your self-judgment, your crushing sense of  self-protection)."

Be bold. Be brave. Listen to and follow your own inner voice. Be grateful and positive. Allow every thought and feeling you experience to become a light that illuminates the world. Be the change.